I had my first casting agency audition yesterday. It did not go as well as I had hoped. The few times I've auditioned for the camera, I have been unnaturally relaxed. I find acting for the camera a very intimate and personal experience, and I am comfortable with that. But lately, I have become jumpy and insecure with auditions and performing, and I nearly sabotage myself with fears, especially the fear of forgetting my lines. I am experienced enough that I should not be concerned about forgetting my lines, but my demons are springing up again, convincing me that for some odd reason, my memory is failing.
First of all, I had to wait an hour and 15 min for my audition, even though it was scheduled for a specific time. Waiting for an audition is always difficult; I have not mastered the art of staying focused and relaxed for an extended period of time. I understand, however, that auditions get backed up, so I am patient. When they finally ushered me in, (and I could tell the guy was tired and really just wanted to go get a sandwich), I suddenly became very insecure about the way I looked; specifically, I was aware that my nipples were popping through my form-fitting shirt. I'm not kidding. It was as if they suddenly came to life with the camera, and I was painfully aware that they would be captured on screen. Ugh. I started my monologue, and about three lines in, my mind went, uhhh, what's the next thing I'm supposed to say? SHIT. panic. panic. Oh, yeah, something about lemonade: "blah, blah, bl-" NO! Not that! She DIDN'T make me lemonade. "Uh..." backpeddle. fumble. Go on.
So, I finished up the monologue, and I may have even had a good moment or two, but I know that fumble counted against me. Like dead air on a radio station. Then, I read from a script, and it was perfect, at least from my point of view. I had the whole thing memorized (??) (see how crazy this is? I blank out on a monologue that I've had memorized, but something I just got an hour earlier, I know by heart). Then, the guy was like, "Ok. Thanks." Practically shoving me out of the door, he did not ask me to fill out additional paperwork like some of the girls before me did. Mmm.
Basically, I got a false start on my monologue, and I very well may have blown a potentially important audition. It's impossible to judge, but... I have a bad feeling. So, how to avoid this? For starters, I think I'm going to start monologues differently. I am going to start them as if I am going to sing. Which is, first: BREATHE. I always forget to breathe.
And I need to just forget about my nipples. Gah!
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(500) Days of Summer: mini review
I think this may be my favorite movie this year! So sweet, funny, creative, touching, real: all this without taking itself too seriously or becoming too indie or precious. Joseph Gordon-Levitt is super charming, and I couldn't stop thinking how much he reminded me of Heath Ledger! Though less intense. I think he is my newest crush. Zooey Deschanel is also lovely, albeit a bit wicked. I love how the story is told (jumping around in time, while still keeping a line), and I love some of the creative elements of the cinematography. It is a simple story but timeless and relatable (I think that's a word??). And let me tell you, what I relief to watch this after I just saw Revolutionary Road! (Sheesh)
Synecdoche, New York
After I rehearsed the pronunciation of this title and looked up what it meant - shut up; I was not an English major!- I watched this movie with pride in my superior knowledge. And then my brain got damaged. I was not an English major because I may or may not have used Cliff's Notes in high school, and after about an hour of this film, I was seriously wondering if Cliff's Notes existed for Synecdoche. Because I was seriously lost and beginning to resent it. And then, then! - yes, this film is a journey!- I began to realize something. It's all a dream. Have you ever woken up and thought, "I just dreamed that my house was on fire, but I was living in it, and there were a bunch of doppelgangers of me and other people running around, and then I went to an art exhibit and looked at very tiny canvases through a magnifying glass"? If you have, you may have seen this film already. So, I don't know what else to say about it except, if you are thinking about doing drugs, or want to have really vivid dreams, try Synecdoche instead.
He's Just Not That Into You
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Slumdog Millionaire
This film is getting a lot of hype lately, but it's justified. It's everything a film should be: inspiring, touching, and exciting. If you don't yet know what the film is about, take advantage of your ignorance and just go see it. I don't know what else to say about it except that it is the best movie I've seen in a while (since Man on Wire, actually), and I hope it sweeps the Oscars. A big win (or wins) for Slumdog would prove that life imitates art, and it would also hand it to Hollywood, who hasn't come up with something this good in a long while. Film bonus: don't expect "Bollywood" here, but there is a Bollywood dance at the end. I think they just couldn't resist.
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button: mini review
I went to see this because I thought Marley would be too depressing on Christmas. (And: Team Brad!). Turns out, B.B. is the third most depressing movie I have ever seen (can you guess the other two?). They took a lovely, interesting short story and inflated it with a big ol' bike pump till it almost burst with drama. The entire set-up of the story - the way it is "told" - is entirely unnecessary, and one sub-plot could have ended up on the cutting room floor and not made any difference. Still, I liked the film. The acting is all very good, the cinematography picturesque, and the story makes you think; but, here's the thing: you start to really think about it and you get really, really sad. So, bring kleenex, or, if you don't need a good cry, skip it.
Man on Wire: mini review
Again with the French! If you were alive in 1974, you may have remembered a man tightrope walking between the two World Trade Center towers. He did it without a net or harness, and he walked back and forth eight times. I won't tell you if he survived it (although you can just as easily look it up), but I will say that the man, Philippe Petit, was one crazy dude. This film is a documentary about his dream to string a cable a 1/4 mile up between the towers, which were not even built yet when he read about them and got the idea, and his six years of planning the stunt. The film includes artistic dramatizations of past events - the ones not captured on film - and present-day commentary from some of his co-conspirators, helpers, and friends. It is amazing and inspiring. Fun fact: he made his "walk" the day before Nixon resigned, so it's possible it would have been an even bigger story if the Prez hadn't immediately eclipsed it.
Elegy: mini review
Ben Kingsley is getting around with the ladies quite a lot recently, no? I blame his agent. Elegy is really just a photo album of Penelope Cruz, who wears three (!) distinctive hairstyles in this film to depict the passing of time. Also, her boobies play a supporting role. Kingsley is a sleazy (but not supposed to be, I think) professor who sleeps with his students and doesn't like marriage. The only interesting part of this film is Peter Sarsgaard, who plays Kingsley's ratty, snooty, spoiled son with an impressive amount of snoot and sneer. This movie made me weary, and now I am weary of this review.
Vicky Cristina Barcelona: mini review
Thank you, Woody, for restoring my faith in American cinema (even if you had to do it in Europe). If you're a fan Mr. Allen, and if you like Spain, you'll love V.C.B. Of course, it should go without saying that if you like girls, you'll love the promise of a Cruz/Johansson threesome, and if you like boys: Bardem, baby. He smolders! He seduces! He's not psycho! (But his ex-wife is) Seriously, though; V.C.B. is entertaining at the least, provocative at most. Plenty of Allen-esque neuroses coming out of the mouths of the characters, and plenty of comedy, plus a dash of pathos, just to keep it grounded. Most enjoyable are the scenes between Bardem and Cruz, especially when he badgers her to "speak English!" for the sake of his new lady. Rebecca Hall also turns in an interesting performance.
Tell No One: mini review
Tell No One marks the third French thriller I've seen this year. The first one I saw, Roman de Gare, was stunning; I really need to write a little review. Tell No One, on the other hand, is a fun, twisty thrill ride. Like Roman, you never know what's going to happen next, and the characters could be dark or light, innocent or guilty; they are constantly changing and keep you guessing. A pediatrician whose wife is murdered (or is she?), a richer-than-God politician, a complicated police officer, Kristen Scott Thomas as a beautiful, French lesbian, an adorable dog (who is also an important role), and a timeless love story all make up this intelligent mystery. Word to Hollywood: France is burying us this year in cinema.
The Dark Knight: mini review
As a fan of Batman - though not a completely geeked-out fan - I was so thoroughly satisfied by this film. It raises the bar. It blows other superhero movies out of the water. All the performances are good, but Heath Ledger's Joker is out of this world. You wonder how much that role cost him, and you suspect too much, seeing as how things ended for this wonderful actor. I heart Christian Bale, but I would have been very happy watching the Joker for 2 hours.